Hyperpop-ish Breakcore Punk Drugstore

Hi, I'm berl, your favorite indie artist (⁠・⁠∀⁠・⁠) and I'm here to talk about my new album. Hyperpop-ish Breakcore Punk Drugstore consists in the musical representation of my neurological and psychological state of mind. Such a redundant sentence, right? But I think it best describes this piece. The entire album is like the onomatopoeia of my mind, kinda like a self portrait, with no interpersonal relationships, communication, none; just myself. If i could describe how i feel about myself, i would reply playing and singing each one of the songs in this album.

The idea came up with ‘DRUGS’, the first track, because of it's punk-ish sound. There are two tracks with punk guitar, three breakcores, with one of them being also pc music, one track mixes breakcore and hyperpop, and three hyperpop tracks. This album truly is hyperpop-ish breakcore and punk —drugstore cause it's about my brain with medications. I had inspirations like 100 gecs, as always, charli xcx, sophie, lil aaron, kim petras, deathbrain and a hundred other breakcore artists. So, no further ado, let's talk about the tracks! ⁽⁠⁽⁠ଘ⁠(⁠ ⁠ˊ⁠ᵕ⁠ˋ⁠ ⁠)⁠ଓ⁠⁾⁠⁾

Opening, there's ‘DRUGS’, that, comically, talks about my relationship with my medications. I really wanted to make a hyperpop album because of ‘risperidone side effects’ and ‘serotonin inhibitor’, but when i started writing this song, i could hear power chords and pop punk vibes, so i thought “why not a punk hyperpop?”. I call them “drugs” like a normal artist that gets high with drugs, but I'm only a weirdo nerd with mental illness and i never get high lol

I was 100% inspired by 100 gecs and lil aaron on this one. Yep, the name and the chorus were totally inspired by DRUGS by lil aaron, but it's like a nerdy version. In his song he talks about getting some girls, spending money, getting high and taking drugs, but in my song, i only talk about my meds :)

‘Risperidone side effects O_o’ was the first breakcore that i made. I got some breakcore samples and made a melody with it, and then the song was finished. It's about some side effects of risperidone, like abnormal hungriness and sleepiness. When i started with risperidone, i got a little high and had hallucinations, so there's something like that in this song. I really enjoyed playing with risers and synth, so i kept my mind free with my creativity.

‘Serotonin inhibitor :D’ was meant to be only a simple breakcore test, but i really liked and wanted to share with everyone, so i thought “there's risperidone side effects, which is a breakcore, but i also take a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor and would be so cool to have another breakcore about my medications”. This one is more melodical, cause the serotonin thing is happiness and stuff, right? Yep! Synthesizer!!! This is the secret!

‘Azaspirodecanedione ^3^’ is about buspirone that i took for months and thought i was doing better, so i made this song about being alright with azaspirodecanedione. I had the idea of this song listening to ‘paradichlorobenzene’ by owataP and Kagamine Len, and the chorus really has a sample “boku wa nan no tameni utau azaspirodecanedione (paradichlorobenzene)

tada imi mo rikai sezu ni utau azaspirodecanedione (paradichlorobenzene)”. I thought it was funny making a song with this word like “supercalifragilisticexpialidocious” and “paradichlorobenzene”. I really like playing with words.

‘Coffee high (@_@)’ is one of my favorite songs made by myself because it has this 2010’s sonority. In late 2010’s i loved being on creepy youtube and the music i listened to had this vibes, like mlp creepypasta, happy tree friends and stuff. I really like vocaloid, glitchcore and nightcore, so i was inspired by these vibes on this song. Now about the lyrics: it's just me talking about the worst drug i’m up to: caffeine. I think I'm truly addicted to caffeine, but i have generalized anxiety disorder and caffeine makes it worse. “My heart is racing, I'm overthinking, i think I'm dreaming. Oh no, I'm gonna die” describes perfectly my body with caffeine.

‘My MRI EXP3R1ENCE (;õwõ)’ has a good story. I had to take a MRI to check my brain and see if there's something wrong caused by autism —the doctor said something like that— and i felt extremely uncomfortable inside the machine, cause the noises were diabolical and i thought i was about to die, but i started listening attentively and thought about ‘track 10’ by charli xcx and ‘gecgecgec’ by 100 gecs, and could kinda hear a song out of nowhere. I went from terrified to inspired in some minutes, and found it kinda funny. This song was meant to be just a single, cause the album was meant to be an EP, but i decided to make an album and put this song too. Definitely is inspired by Sophie, Charli XCX and 100 gecs.

‘I don't like sex :(‘ has this fresh early 2000’s vibe because i was inspired by blink-182 and simple plan. I really wanted to make a song about being asexual, and this song came up in a perfect moment. Firstly i thought about lisianthus and the sadness of wanting to see someone and no one else, plus say to the whole world that i don't like sex, but sooo much time after this song being almost done, i changed the concept to something like don't wanting to see anyone and just play roblox and minecraft without anyone cause people like sex and i don't. The song came from “I don't really like sex, wish i could come back to my ex” to “I don't really like sex, wish i WON'T come back to my ex” and “I don't want you, i don't need you, I don't wanna play roblox with you” cause long time ago i wanted to play roblox with someone and now i don't want. Plus the “you” i talk about in the bridge of this song could be reptilia, the anti-asexual-practice human being.

‘Suffering from abstinence D':’ is a song that i really like, cause i made in some of the first experiences with risperidone abstinence and i was destructed, i felt really bad and made this song. I posted on YouTube and it went kinda great, with good views compared to my other music. It got a reply that made me feel soooo good, it was someone saying that I'm a stellar artist and my music is good. I was truly happy after seeing this comment, and till today this inspires me and i feel good when I'm making a song. So, thanks nerkdurgen5574.

‘That's why I don't take benzo anymore ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯’ came in the same day i was writing ‘azaspirodecanedione’ and is about my first experience with benzodiazepines, when i was 15 and had a creepy panic attack and a bad trip with benzodiazepines on a psychiatric center with my mother. I thought benzo would kill me so i never wanted to take it again. But now I'm fine and the doctor prescribed me a new benzo medication :)

So, this was my Hyperpop-ish Breakcore Punk Drugstore experience and i hope you liked it! (⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧