How i feel about the character lisanthus

Hi, I'm berl, your favorite indie artist. I hope this is the last time i write something for lisianthus. In case you don't know, lisianthus is one of the most important characters in my life. I made this character for my album. They inspired me to make 9 songs (until now), some letters and crying at a random moment. Damn, that's a lot, lisianthus! The song that describes exactly this character is 'lisianthus', the fifth track on my album 'runaway'. I made this one after the episode i call "the downfall", that is the moment after 'runaway', the tenth track on the album. The lore behind my songs is something weird. I feel like is very weird when i try to explain. So, back to lisianthus: i made this song when i wanted to transpass the feeling of a comforting love, cause they were made to be this comforting character. I really loved the idea of being with lisianthus, and i loved how they were supposed to make me feel. But then, here comes 'goodbye my winter days'. I had to say "goodbye". In this track, i had some help from my friends Henrique and Dhebora, as i already said on the previous post. Now that you already know lisianthus, i can talk about how I'm feeling. In 'goodbye my winter days' i say this line: "should i wait for you or forget?" But now i surely know that i should forget. I already wrote some songs about this feeling of wanting to forget, and the song that describes exactly how i feel is 'without you'. But i'd like to say something more to lisianthus, and i don't think music is enough.

Lisianthus, I'm here to say "I HATE YOU". At this moment, i can really say that i hate you. I hate everything about you (why do i love you?) I really hate all those moments we had together, everything you said to me, everything i said to you, every single song i made for you. I hate you. Now, you really don't give a fuck about me, you're living your life, while I'm here making more songs for you. There are four songs about you in my album. That's crazy bullshit. You don't give a shit about me. You don't love me, you don't hate me, you're literally LIVING. I hate that you're living. As day6 said "i hate that you're happy, i hate that i can't sleep". I feel so bad for hating your happiness, i feel like the worst living thing in the whole world. This is not love. I can't call what i feel for you "love". I don't love you. All the beautiful feelings in 'lisianthus' are dead. All i feel for you is in 'without you' (unreleased). By the way, 'without you' acoustic version is available on my youtube channel. Go stream my hatred!

I think I'm gonna make more songs with the idea of lisianthus, so you should support me!

I think that's all i have to say. Byeee!